whatcha gonna do ??

whatcha gonna do when the buffalo go

when the only herd left is at the picture show
ya can't fill a belly with paper you know
so whatcha gonna eat when the buffalo go


where ya gonna hide when ol' Enbridge comes
 laying all their pipes for the rich man's son
promising relief while they cram it up our bum
where ya gonna hide when ol' Enbridge comes


whatcha gonna do when they float belly-up
when the only ones left won't feed a pup
all that's left is what a seal threw up
so whatcha gonna eat when they float belly-up

whatcha gonna drive when the wells run dry
when the cars lay rusting from the tears we cried
no more ease of a Sunday drive
so whatcha gonna do when the wells run dry


where ya gonna put all the sopped up mess
the oil that ya mopped must be re-addressed
throw it inna dump costs a whole lot less
so whatcha gonna do with the sopped up mess


How ya gonna pay if its all for naught
trying to save a system of a military plot
when they print so much paper that it ain't worth squat
How we gonna pay if its all for naught


What ya gonna eat when their corn won't grow
when the soybeans die from a fertilized glow
when all we've got to eat is a plasticized sow
whatcha gonna eat when their corn won't grow


















http://www.davidsuzuki.org/blogs/pierre-sadik/2010/07/offshore-drilling-industrys-dirty-little-secret-they-cant-clean-it-up/#comments

the Ejifrustication syndrome

Gaaaaaak !!! Whotta whoppin' pain in th' arse tryin' ta go bak ta git sum mor skoolin' iz !!!!

So....here I am about to go to the local University to see if they'll allow me to sign up for a course on Social Services and do it as a "mature student" which means I'm old but smart enough to play the game. 

 I've been forwards, backwards, sideways, and under the system in the last several weeks since I od'd on the Injun thingie. The money is there....but it seems I've missed the class at the local college and they're willing to let me register for a bunch of useless crap which does little for me but lots for them to "prepare" me for full time student status when the course opens in the fall 2011. Heck !.....I don't even know if I'll be alive that far ahead.

The difficulty comes with all the "help" the system is willing to give. It seems that the unemployment game wants to offer me a living wage to get by on while I attend class but only if the classes are full time status. That means either 5 or 6 courses per semesturd. Of course they don't tell me until I've registered for the course and paid for an  assessment test that I can't get into the course because its full.....and that I can only take three pre-requisite courses in the fall semester unless I go to adult ed, take english 103 and accounting 11.....complete in 4 weeks..... to meet the requirement of intellect......fawk !!  What the hell does math have to do with Social work ? Oh right....the reason you don't fit into the scheme of thinks my friend is you never learned how to do math. It must be some "algorithmitic plot"......Well thanks folks !

Whaaaat ???? There's no point in taking the assessment exam now...until next summer because even if you do it and do it righteously.....it doesn't count by then ! Whaaaat ??! You won't refund my registration fee for the course I can't get into but you'll let me have the assessment fee back ?? Whuzzat ??!! I can take another course on the reggie fee...even though it won't do me a damn bit of good ??  Oh I see.....bait the hook game......Fuck the system ! ..I told you arseholes the government will only let me have a living wage for two years...not three people !!

It looks like education has gotten swallowed up in the industrialistic vision as well as everything else. Here Bro.....let us help ourselves to your pockets and dole ya out some weapons of mass-stupidity while we're at it.!!!

So its off to UNBC tomorrow to see if they'll allow some intellectual lunatic to come out of 'nowhere' and play their game. Wish me luck...........

we are all the children of hunter/gatherers

These are pictures from a history of a very successful 'hunter/gatherer.....myself and some of my hunt-brothers. They offer readers another look into my multi-faceted lifestyle. I am not interested in disapproval as I've stated my opinions on vegan lifestyles quite clearly. I have long hunted within the spiritual bounds of my cultural history. I am perfectly at ease with the taking of life for sustenance especially in view that I too will eventually be consumed to contribute to life's continuity. If you aren't interested.....don't look. Above and below is  my old chum Brian and I with a whopper of a bullmoose we shot just before dark one evening.....30 miles east. He fed two familys our basic meat for 6 months.

In the three pics above are my 'son' Ryan who has hunted since he was old enough to be packed in a backpack by his folks. He is a concientious game and forestry warden with a strong gift for humanity in his public dealings. I had a effective influence on him as he went from boy to man. I am very proud to know him.

I do not hunt grizzlies....but he has as is obvious and he does it with the tenacity of an old time mountain man.....though this was shot on a gravel road. he has been known to track for 4-10 hours when afield........in some of the toughest territory. He's a tough young man with a big heart.

The last two pics are of a magnificent buck Ry got  and I ate some of it for breakfast last Sunday. Then there is another good-sized bullmoose we scored together. These are damn good memories!

to move out or remain in....

There are many folks across the globe expecting and beginning to expect hard times to come. For places where jobs are disappearing and financial troubles are ensuing the questions are beginning to flow fast and furious. It is not a popular subject and most repel as fast as they can....choosing instead to believe our cheap energy lifestyles will find a way through technology.....to remain static. The ridiculousness of this attitude is obvious to those of us who understand the simple mathematics of overpopulation plus fixed sustenance source plus individualism......but those who adhere to the industrialist habit are fixated on the "machine"....because it is a helluva lot easier to deal with than the idea of facing simple survival on a Global level in the not-too-distant future. I had a teenager remark on this matter today in a direct cognitive way. She said, "man cannot endlessly expand " I was impressed by her absolute recognition of the fact and even more impressed by her acceptance of a tough future for her generation.

So....tell me what you think about where you live. Do you think it wise to move away from large urban populations and seek to learn the manual ways man has used for eons to survive? Or.......if you are unable to move away.......do you think it wise to try to organize within your community to collectively create small market networks of trade strategies to produce necessities ? What are some of the concerns you have if you are interested at all or will you just roll along with your head in the sand waiting for the government to solve a crisis it cannot solve?

I live in a reasonably small town with easily convertible transportation systems such as railroads to ease the burdens we will soon experience as this looming depression gathers force. I think my community will seek to address its needs as it did in the early days when it began. This is a working person's town which was built by hard labor and friendship....even though the methodology was in part industrialism. I'm going to stay right here and grow as much foodstuffs as we can, maybe dig a well, build a green house, build a wheeled cart from an old pick-up, learn how to make a steam engine......what the heck.....I'm too damned beat-up to go traipsing off anyway.

 I expect there will be a certain amount of exodus from here to more populated areas as people begin to experience lack........there always is when industry fails in any economy. Most of what we are seeing worldwide now is denial but I think that will be changing as the year passes. Europe is beginning to acknowledge hard times on its horizon as is the US and China's boom isn't looking near as 'rosy' considering its largest retail is the US. We have worked for centuries to open trade routes worldwide and used every manner of manipulation in all corners of the globe to build an idealistic attempt at security through the ease supplied by cheap fuel......though the cost to life and dignity was never cheap.......just the illusion to cheap fuel's perpetuators.....by enticing others into this farcial game of the wealthy.

in the Love Surrounds

Home , summer 2010.AVI

a "meant to be or not to be" that is the question.......

Oft times I've stated I did not believe life in a microcosm of the "infinity" was meant to be utopic. Yet...I have hinted again and again that I believe it to be a reflection of the macrocosm........governed by 'smaller' versions of that which governs the whole make-up. In my perception it is like seeing little "heavens" among the entire infinity of heaven and these abound endlessly in the illusions created by the infinite rules.....or cosmic laws.....of the time/space continuum. This view led to a different interpretation of such old parabels as "many mansions in my kingdom".....which I attempted to address in the following re-print of my old poem.

John 14 verses 13 - 18



I know of Majickal otherworld things
of unicorns, dragons, and mystic moon rings
on visions with eagles, thru swan's gentle grace
I fell out of hell into deep inner space
I walked thru a door, a gold pearly gate
found wonders long past, from choosing my fate
was given a rune, of ritual strength
and shown far the beauty, infinity's length
I've drunk pure ambrosia, distilled by the gods
worn Hebrew, Egyptian, and Druid ephods
I stood beside Lilith as Adam her judge
made Eve from his rib, to settle a grudge
I conjured concoctions and cast many spells
taught by the Masters, the Norns of the well
in cave firelight I danced as the shaman
shapeshifted my soul from wolf to a salmon
I found seven memories, pieces of soul
took them to heart and made myself whole
we make our own worlds from formless beginning
and journey the slipstream, ageless, unending
this well filled of beauty, its depth ere' divine
there are many mansions, the key is the mind

In the former post.....on addictions......a comment was made by a family member, Matt, regarding the plus and minus of what I was postulating....to whit......the real possibility that our industrial addiction has led us to a dangerous and possibly irreversible shift in human consciousness by which we have become so inundated by our need for consensus that we may be losing the ability to think for ourselves individually. This idea has opened a door by which I can continue this short thesis to further my aim in its message. Thanks Matt.

It seems to me  that while we consider ourselves the most intelligent of all species we've yet to recognize that our knowledge is as dangerous to our existance as it is temporarily helpful.  The illusion of industrialism creates a 'vicious circle' by  fostering the need for  a solution to every problem created by our 'industrious thinking'. Nothing we've ever created has been free of problem. This perpetuates the continuity which leads again and again to our interfering in natural cosmic laws and the end result is universally problematic.

If....as is so popular with spiritual idealists.....we are perfectly perfect as we stand.....at every moment......then why do we continue on the same industrious paths ? When an evolutionary timeline is considered it opens the likelihood we've all been here before.......in another human existance.......evolving through cycles to become the zenith of our self-created existance.......the top of the food chain.....thoroughly anthropocentric............and very likely destroyed ourselves and life in general on our planet.....through the same pestilences we have collectively created in this present evolution. Would this be much different than the ability to collectively imagine annihilation by some other force such as a comet ? Not much in my thinking. What if that collective imagination that continuously wants to build a better mousetrap has an equally fortuitous negative expectation......generally voiced through thoughts and words in doubt or failure.......and more powerful than the positive simply because it exists on a larger scale by our collective propensity to fear-basing ? If our ability to 'move mountains' collectively.......in fact......can move mountains.......then it can also create an unholy havoc on itself. That is exactly what we seem to be more capable of doing......by our industrial selves.

Maybe......the long evolutionary road to over-population and all the resultant sustenance problems.....is simply the way it has to go because we're never meant to "improve" our existance.........but just simply accept its form.......as the gift of an experience. 

"Might as well face it we're addicted to stuff"

I thought to talk about addiction a bit this morning and what I sense as its root cause. The changing chemistry of psychotrophs by chemists in our time has produced a plethora of variables which influence different regions of our brain's capacity for producing sensations. I first came across evidence and explanation of the processes by which this happens in common news articles during my initiation years between '69-71'. In those days there was never mention of much more than words like dangerous and mind-altering in common media threads but the 'underground current' would occasionally present some tidbit on the matter which those involved would greedily consume. Of course.......I would put this away in the 'storehouse' for reference as well.......to use at some future time to impress or debate with. In the mid-nineties I was given a copy of a book titled 'Psychedelic Shamanism' by author/researcher Jim DeKorne............which proved to hold considerable information regarding this matter and a volumne of other things as well. Mind you......most of the information in the book had to do with the traditions of psychotrophic plant based use by various shamanic cultures.

The difference in this period seems to be  from the chemical recognition now existing which has allowed different blends of the chemicals to create what is commonly referred to as 'designer drugs'. CRACK COCAINE  produced from cocaine is far more addictive than its source,  for example. Many young folks will not experiment with LSD but will with drugs like ECSTASY which research also states is far more emotionally addictive than its predecessor. Last but not least, is the newer version of SPEED which is still called METH or CRANK but is said to be chemically superior in its euphoria producing ability than its older form. With this I want to explore an idea I've had for some years concerning addictive personalities.

Addiction is seen as a physiological disorder and/or a psychological disorder created by everything from an imbalance of body chemistry, to childhood influences, to life-stress factors. Chemical dependency covers a wide range of subject matter and all the associative trends of debate.....yet....I wonder just how much the studies have included the simple fact that our culture is built on top of a materialistic world-view......which can easily produce addictive attitudes. Let me explain my thought. The fundamentals of most Spiritual view provide the idea that one is here on earth to earn one's way to a better resolve....a place beside an all-powerful knowledge-figure........where security and pleasantness will be forever granted. If this is not accomplished one is either sent back for repeated learning or, in some cases, condemned forever to some nether-world. This kind of thinking .....I believe.....is control methodology made up by folks who want authority over others.......because they are frightened by natural law. Safety in numbers, eh? What this kind of systemization does.....is allow for a more gregarious nature to influence one less assertive and create a support system of co-dependency.....a damned fine basis for addictive attitudes. As soon as leadership roles can be established......in this type of consensual thinking.........a class system is present and materialism can easily become an objective......and remember......safety in numbers......materialism.........can easily be an army of believers.

Once the system becomes materialistic.....which is necessary to gain its agenda........time and consistency become its main theatre as it moves to expand and thus support itself.  As  industry-trade.......began to create another social class some 10,000 years ago........moving steadily forward ...... the earth needed communication to morph between cultural anomalies in order to continue expanding industry-trade routes worldwide. That is just what happened and when one looks at the beginnings of religions from early tribal stories written down and organized into prose and poetry......like Vedic literature and the array of written histories surrounding the Mediterranean cultures......it is easy to see why we've slowly adopted a greater co-dependency with materialism. Materialism becomes the "proof extant" societies use to validate and certify their existance.

With our materialistic belief systems comes an increasing array of associated addictions and that brings me to the current state of affairs. The youth of today have become addicted to the idea that they all deserve instant gratification through the speed of technology and communication. Its like those popular ideas of past-lives where everyone sees themself as a person of greater standing in a former life but rarely as Joe-Average or some disgusting lesser self-image. And we........the parents of the younger generations classically remove ourselves from fault in continually perpetuating this mythology of ego.......the very nature of co-dependent belief.  The harsh reality kicks in when kids begin sensing there is a big fat lie underneath the surface of our 'garden variety society' and this.....in my thinking......is the major contributing fact to the ease of addiction in all its forms.

 Organized belief-systems..........have been the driving force which populated the planet to current extremes.....another perfect example of what I term....... 'foundational co-dependent addiction'......and if the current spiritual examples are correct......then pollution, degradation, social addiction, and all related hardship is the real result of man-inspired organization........not a "better future" we so love to project.

Justin Case

"oh the times they are a changin'......"

And the actual truth is probably sooner than we think. Its too bad there are so many who choose to ignore all the "signs" showing history repeating itself but that is the usual path folks take.


Take the gulf as example.....when one considers the scope of the problem....and there is no measure outside of speculative since we've never seen a chemical disaster of this size until now. Except in its residual effects and mostly after the fact the world wasn't ready to fathom the Chernobyl disaster in the Soviet Union. It took many years before the west was  allowed any public access and then we saw the deserted towns and countryside.....which has a way of making the average person think things were not that bad........even though they were horrific. The Exxon Valdez in Alaska left a wake of dead in the years that followed and has many scientists puzzling over the long term effects of exposure.......but it doesn't come close to what is happening in the Gulf and all affected  populations.  I also think its ridiculous to hear government refer to this as a spill.


Now that enough time has passed for our usual interest to fade the status-quo media is reverting to its usual policy of watching for the next big thing because Mr and Mrs Public have grown sick of hearing about another negative reality. Its unfortunate that many New Age genres have pumped all this 'think positive' crap until its become a pitiful habit we're seeing. there is always a yin-yang equation in life.....and all the so-called positive thinking is positively ridiculous. This disaster is not going away like the Valdez and will  impact  the entire food chain polluting the fisheries which have fed millions for the last 200odd years. That impact  is going to be  hard  to swallow.....pun intended...... with no 'measuring stick'.


It sure seems to be our collective karma finally making itself plain. Among all the other warning signs nature has handed us in the last 10 years one would think folks would openly seek consensus among their fellows  to try and fathom just what is dawning for civilization and what would be a plan of action to adapt. One of the aspects of all this will be shortages in all manner of commodities much as experienced since Katrina.......and another exodus of population.....to already over-crowded cities with little work opportunities.


I talked with a couple from small town Texas today who were passing through town on their way to Alaska.
The fellow was telling me how much poverty has risen in the last 30 years in his state. I told him I was very aware of this and had seen it first-hand in 1997.


Oh the times...they are a changin'............

as unnatural as vegetarian

Many years ago I became annoyed at the author of several articles of opinion in our local rag.....which isn't unusual for me. This person was labelling all hunters and consumers of meat "wildlife killers". So I wrote a response to her articles asking if she kept plants captive in her house or was aware of the studies done on plants being sympathetic to their grower's plight should the grower become ill......and some of these proved out even at great distances between person and plants. I deliberately used the word 'captive'.....for it is my opinion that plants may not necessarily wish to be 'kept' indoors. I also asked her if she had any real knowledge whereby the vegetarian diet she lauded came from and how it was grown. As well, I questioned her as to what the difference was in eating a plant.... which botanists had proven were capable of 'sympathy'.....from eating an animal.  She chose to ignore the former and merely reiterated her simple opinion of cruelty.

The opinion she chose to portray is more commonly referred to with phrases such as "too much Walt Disney fluff in her childhood" or some other similar comparison...... but I think it goes far deeper into areas of that 88% of unused portion of our brains which storehouse so much other untapped resource. I lean to the idea of something imbedded way down in human consciousness which recognizes a baseline connection to all existance in atomic mass or physical form. This is more of a subconscious innate idea which stirs something deep in our nature and causes an attempt by our rational mind to try and release us from the 'trap'....bear with me.....of the natural exchanges of life...... and by that.......I am saying that everything is....food or feeder.......of or on.......everything else.......at one time or another .......throughout the existence of this earth.  My usual comment is regarding the fact that everything dies sooner or later and will return to simple organic matter nourishing something else in the circular exchange of matter. This idea connects all matter at all levels of the interplay which exists between animate and inanimate and is the perfect expression of "natural acceptance" in my opinion......but it is not popular within arenas of naivete.

These thoughts have led me, over the years, to reconsider the causes of why civilizations are born, prosper, and die in all form.....but especially when it comes to human beings. I think all things have their place in time and space equations but this idea neither supports one aspect as positive or negative.......merely just the 'breath' of life. As I pondered and looked at the social traits of humans I began seeing a pattern to our behaviour as the source of  our constant dilemna. Trade and farming.

 At this point I'll interject something from the good ol' Bible again.....for your consideration.....about the 'forbidden fruit' from the tree of knowledge.

It seems that once bipeds begin grasping the idea of maintaining crops as insurance against starvation the next thing which transpires is the notion to trade these commodities back and forth between themselves for sources to expand our comfort. We call this human nature. If it is human nature then it stands to reason that we have some sort of deeper insight which almost seems to be a recognition of life's futility and thus we accept this "game" and play it out again and again throughout our history. We slowly make a transition from hunter-gatherers who follow the whims of nature by simple animistic beliefs to an industrialist idealism which creates a belief whereby we begin to think we can control our destinys through knowledge and its application......man-centered or anthropocentric.

 I think this is something to consider for those who see the current popularity of such things as 'transition town' thinking as a way of insuring survival in the years ahead...........as our short love affair with cheap energy implodes.

Canadian, Please

Caretakers.....a tough one to release

 Cindy....I did come home with one powerful bad cold. One of the students from up north had a flu. I also realized this course isn't for me.

 I've been having to learn a lesson since I lost my job and it is about my need to take care of others. Suzanne said something to me late Sunday night  about sticking it out if at all possible......she said I never did anything solely for myself but always with others in mind. Now I'd dispute that because I think I'm too selfish but from her POV .......I'm too generous. That has always been a tough thing for me to accept even though it has been said many times by many others.

The hard part was the decision to fold after our facilitator went all out for me.......but.....the course that I can't continue in goes to credit with MNBC so I or anyone else can take it at another time. As an alternative the costs can be re-routed to an off site arrangement which is what I'd like to see. The truth of this matter lies back when I wasn't really interested in the course because I don't like counseling folks under structured rules. I should have said something then to change the focus of our facilitator, but I didn't because she seemed so excited.....yet her plan is for me to write proposals. 

 I work best when I'm unfettered by rules. It is a repeat of the same issue I faced with common psychology upgrades 10 years ago and.....this has nothing to do with the effectiveness of Nechi based counseling. Their program speaks for itself, its just that I generally deal with far deeper intrinsic thought patterns in those who seek my opinion. Everything Nechi teaches about actual counseling.....I knew long ago and much of it to me is ground level social work....a damn good thing but not my 'area' .

 I approached the local board 10 years ago on this very issue but was ignored after the fact even though the shamefaced response was....pardon the pun.....across the board. If the locals have problems.....it translates to the collective and vice-versa. Those of us who understand the meaning of "vicious circle" in patterning all recognize this. You cannot heal 1 part.....it must be the 'whole'. The reason for this has long been ignored by those in charge of MNBC policy even though they don't fully realize we've inner circle problems......that need healing.......before MNBC can do any better of a job providing services for its clients. 

The Nechi program would make an excellent foundation for the provincial leadership and all the officers and staff throughout the Metis Nation of BC. Without the serious approach to community based healing FIRST......any personal attempts begin withdrawal from the pressures associated to the old patterns of action. It is the same dependency at the top of a society as it exists at the bottom. One family member can never save his family for it must be a collective action. Nechi's original orchestrator learned this the hard way and all who successfully complete their basic training sessions will know it from a point of ground zero. The program.....at basic CAT level.......is designed to bring a fuller awareness of this. While I have spent many years trying...when possible....to share this idea with Metis in BC......a program such as Nechi can inspire.......would be phenomenal as a basis of design for its communication skill factors.

The truth for me Cin....and I think you've already recognized this during our association.....is I am only interested in being a quiet participant on the outside perimeter of such an institution....in unrestricted advisory capacity only. I have earned the right to a quiet retirement though accepting this fact is proving a bit difficult.

when the music's over

"What have they done to the earth?

What have they done to our fair sister?

Ravaged and plundered

and ripped her and bit her

Stuck her with knives

in the side of the dawn

and tied her with fences

and dragged her down"

These are lyrics from a song Jim Morrison wrote in 1970 with the title of this post. I think they well bode the forecast of what is dawning for those of us who are beginning to realize that civilization, as we now know it, may well be on the verge of great change and as a good friend of mine, the Archdruid, so aptly noted.......not one of "better times".

The ease of how many  in the Americas have grown accustomed to living stands at an edge now as we are coming to a gathering awareness of what subjects like 'Peak oil', 'expansionist politics', and ecology really portray. Over the next few years I am reasonably certain these facts are liable to spawn idealism changes in the very nature of our belief systems. It is going to be a harsh reality as the middle-class sees its hopes for a better life and a quality retirement dashed to bits in favor of simple survival. Our society has grown so complex and demanding in its reliance on petro-chemicals that most of us cannot begin to fathom the stark difference between convienience and bare essentials.

I walk outside in the morning and I wonder just how long a small city of 80,000 can operate when its tax base begins spiraling down due to depressed economy. Everytime I turn the news on the subjects of economical growth are minimal compared to what is actually taking place. Canadian officials have been portraying our country's stability as far more sound than the US but I don't believe this for a minute. The largest consumer base in history is what we are a part of and it is falling apart. I am firm in my opinion of overpopulation by man as the absolute cause of all current calamity.

So...what to do ? Is this too much 'doom & gloom' ? I think not....for other than temporary states of financial grace we have no special place in the scheme of life. We just like to pander to this opinion because it makes us feel worthwhile.

Islands of Peace.AVI

Islands of Peace

This old earth where I reside is like a lover
Or a mother father brotherhood or saint
For she hands me every single thing I’ve needed
And she  offers helping hands to my complaint
Yet something I’ve forgotten disrespected her
Though I thought I had a right to think that way
Now I’ve gone and spilled her blood as if I owned her
And this time for my injustice I must pay


There are places in the heart we all retreat to
When the senses which we live by feel deprived
Its an island where time stops so we can freshen
every memory from which pain is contrived
When I come to you in shadow my heart heavy
And my reason will no longer guide my way
Will you open up your arms to wrap me gently
Are you even mindful of my disarray



I have loosened all the sail, the lines, the mooring
For I once again see that our love’s a lease
And I’m throwing out the compass I once trusted
Will you welcome me into your island of peace



In hard times we  need something to remind us
Of the visions we’ve forgotten and misplaced
For they came from some connection oh ! much deeper
Than the task at hand  which we have disgraced
There are islands that exist in every moment
where a quiet voice says not to fear nor  fret
They’re like places we would play when we were children
Learning love could always help to forgive and forget.

Excerpt written for another....

.....I'd like to add after crusin' the comments that a "brighter future" is the perpetrator of the calamities that currently exist in all areas of the globe. It is the pursuit of security which creates a wake of calamity just a sure as calamity can lead to understanding. Look how long it has taken for mankind to become aware of universality....just nation to nation. There is no real reason to despair.



To understand the source-meanings of words like god, infinity, and lord can easily point to this fact. Did you know good sir...the oldest meaning of "Lord" as referred to in Genesis and noted in the margins of many bibles is "wind"? No more and no less when one examines and considers the anthropomorphic context of such. Wind brought both calm and calamity to those desert tribes much as it does to modern man.


There has never been a perfect world nor will there ever be one. There are...however....'islands of peace' that exist in all dimensions of consciousness...as quantum mechanics slowly certifies for the scientific mind....the same understanding which is reached by those who undertake the quest to understand existance. These places exist whether one is aware of them or not just as surely as life can be argued as 'extant'.


Believing this earth must rise to some utopic zenith...some nirvanic existance...disallows continuity... which is exampled in the natural order all around us. It is like worshiping a false idol. When you examine words attributed to the Biblical Jehova such as "I am both good and evil" you must consider the science of expansion/contraction theories.....for they exist in parallel meaning. Even the recent experiments with the small particle accelerator in the US is pointing out that there is something unique to existance by the specifics of attraction.


Falling into the state of survival ....exclusively..... completely subjugates consciousness . Matter can neither be created nor destroyed my brother. It merely alters and changes through and of dimensions.
As old friend Bob Dylan once sang, "good and bad I define these terms...quite clear..no doubt...somehow...ahh but I was so much older then...I'm younger than that now".
Existance is for....ever...my friend....in one form or another and we are all just along for the ride.

Bible.AVI

Karma...disaster....retribution

Time and again on this site we have discussed the effects of childhood and how the instruction by our families inundates us with beliefs. Most of the comments have been 'charged' with energy and many times I could feel each of you as I read your thoughts. We've discussed subjects from reincarnation to karma in ways which only those who truly seek answers to free their inner 'selves' would dare to respond. I've taken 'shots' at common concepts in 'spirituality' and 'mysticism' and tried to boil things down to some grounded actualities by story and dialogue.....let alone by song and poetry. I daresay I've left many of you an array of ideas which pecked holes in your memories and made you initiate self-analysis in ways you had not considered. I've tried to keep this site honest and forthright as well as candid, concerning my life, so to give all.....some sort of image of what it feels like to actively speak beyond the confines of social and spiritual dogmas. My 'creedo' is never accept anything said or written as a 'standard'.......for everything which exists from human intervention in nature is merely spatiotemporaly temporary.

When I broach the subject of changing times and the ideas of chaos and loss.............. silence.

So I want to re-example karma for you all. The worst man-made disaster of ecological loss is happening in the Gulf of Mexico and though I usually keep such notions confined to personal things I am seeing exactly what I've been expecting for many years. The Gulf coast and the US is getting what its been asking for unilaterally...for many years.....an oil disaster which will test the limits of faith in its governing practices. GOVERNING PRACTICES........not governing principles. The principles of pure democracy are only as good as the personal principles of  ALL  persons in the democracy.  In the last 300 years the US has  tempted, coerced, and forced subjugation upon its aboriginal populations....indigenous as well as imported....and all other populations indigenous to oil-rich lands.
It has done this by its industrial attitudes of 'manifest destiny' under the guise of  patriotism while perversely waving the flag of an extinct middle-eastern god.
Karma is a natural law...period. Those of us who continuously flaunt our desires by consumerism and individuality will always feel the effect of such at the greatest degree... through losses in war and disasters......http://70.85.205.66/~rsairpho/gallery.php?gal=22

for Jinksy

“ shadows of love” May 2000 Dennis Ouellette

A shadow holds a song of love…somewhere ‘twixt light and dark

The multi-colored woven threads…..a tapestry of heart

In shades of grey expression lives….for never is love plain

Where black meets white illusions lie…while changing in their grain

You came to me ingrained in time…and spoke the very words

About my dream I shared with one…who never really heard

As time stood still my heart ran fast…and where I longed to be

Was given in the secrets from…the well of mysteries

Most of us will never find………………..a lifetime tells the tale

Who’ll die still hunting for perfect love…..caught in some age-old spell

Through shadow ‘twixt both black and white……we journey to this task

And run our circle game through time..…in future, now, and past

It just takes time for us to learn…………...that everything we’ll be

Is all a part of someone’s dream…………among the mysteries

I’ve learned to sail uncharted seas…….to find her grey-green eyes

They lead me through the shadows of….what’s hidden ‘twixt her sighs

I’ll love her now from this time forth……I’ll never sail away

The one who spoke so long ago…..said thus would come one day