welcome to "Tinker-Bella"

In 1999, shortly before I met Suzi Q.......I drove south 350 miles to Vernon one afternoon to bring back a 5ton rental truck for a good friend who was moving to the eastern U.S. On the way, passing through 100 MileHouse BC , I spotted a roadside vendor selling those popular fleece type blankets. A beautiful golden queen size with a Tiger caught my eye....so unmistakeably intense....that I asked my buddy to turn around and go back. He glanced at me and I told him 'spirit' was telling me to buy this blanket and I'd soon know why. Tim, my buddy, has been through a lot of things with me and has learned to accept my intuitions without question so he did just that. I'm not one to be frivolous with money...at all....but when 'spirit' says do something in an unmistakeable fashion I almost always try to comply. The tiger blanket was not cheap at 90$ but it sure made the fellow happy and that's a good thing too. We carried on into Vernon, picked up the truck, and returned home somewhere around 4 or 5AM. I brought the blanket in and threw it across my sofa ( one I'd acquired at the local swap shed ) to brighten up my rather Spartan furnishings.........divorce and living away from your home can leave one without many of the comforts we formerly owned.....but thats another story.
      The first time Suzanne came to one of my healing/teaching/learning sessions......she promptly commented on how beautiful the 'tiger' was. That was the time another clairvoyant commented that our auras turned to gold and fully joined when we sat at opposite ends of the sofa. I knew something powerful was happening during the days that followed and....well....many of you now know the journey. It was shortly after that I gave her her 'spirit name' during a ceremony one evening. The name came to me easily in the ceremony...'Tiger Lily'.......even though I thought it was kind of 'funny' at the time. When I discovered that Suzanne means 'lily'.....in an older more ancient tongue....sometime later...I was satisfied.
       Recently.....we acquired a female Boxer pup from friends who raise them. Suzanne used to raise them as well and they are probably....her favorite dog. She had the last of her dogs when I met her...Tawny.....who died in typical 'Boxer style' ( heart-attack ) a few years ago......as a matter of fact just two years before ol' Jake the bear. We have been dogless since because neither of us felt like another until babysitting the son's "Pitty" for most of the winter reminded how much fun they are....among all other attributes. So now we have 'Tinker-Bella'......or just Bella for ease of training etc.

       Suzanne had decided to call her Belle at first but I argued for something quite a bit more 'in tune' with us but....we couldn't agree until she walked into a close friend's.......with Belle for the first time.....and when her three year-old  heard her name she promptly spit out "Tinkerbella". I was not there at this time and when Suzanne told me the next day.....I stopped...drew a breath.....and said, "I'll be damned...... 'spirit' is speaking through the little child and confirming something I'd always wondered about. You see...I've long doubted if Sue really trusted some of my deeper intuitions until they play themselves out in a graphic way through our tangible lives.  When I began talking about the kid's name for the pup....I realized Suzanne had no connection between Tigerlily and Tinkerbella. Surprised....I asked her if she'd ever read Peter Pan. She said no......just saw the movies. When I told her who her namesake was she was rather quietly amazed. In discussing this with her I notice,  once again,  the reasons why we were drawn together at the point of contact.  She has a simple abiding faith that time and a gentle way removes all boundaries of love....which spawns from a long, 'quiet path' of self-analysis.....since she was a girl . It goes hand in hand with a far better example of parenthood....than I had.....and the witnessing of daily love between her parents when she was an infant, toddler, and adolescent. My levels of trust were built on my intuitiveness in a different way and much more aggressive in nature, but nonetheless powerful.....for I trusted my spirit to guide me through my life....and still do. My early formed distrust of my parent...and thus all adults in general......and learning to accept the harsh equations as part of the program made it far easier for me to find perspective from "failure"....and showed me there is always a way back to 'light' or love. It comes from growing up always feeling alone...or separate....from social consensus.  I try to express this in the song I wrote titled "Legend".

    Those of you who struggle with different issues...such as those we've discussed herein during our time together.....both personal and when we've written them in comments and/or as part of our blogs.....will realize that even at the deeper levels of comprehending the nature of our inner-children we still deal in consensual patterns daily. The difference is in how we deal with them. It is this.....how I deal.......that allows me to read between written lines and traverse each of your emotional minds...at times....with such clarity that sometimes you are astounded. What I find reassuring....as well astounding.....is that all of you still 'ride the river' with me. Your love is truly a blessing.