Carry forward......

    Don't you love it when life seems to jump into cruise control and just goes along in 5th gear a bit above idle. That seems to be what is taking place right now. I have no pressing business to attend to other than repairing things around the homestead. I like it when I get to relax and just carry on without having to adopt a mindset to contend with some workplace crap. I'm not making any money right now but I've no immediate pressure to run around looking for a job either. The woman and I are prepping the house for paint inside to give it a fresh look as a selling enticement. I love working on my home though I must admit I'm probably one of the roughest carpenters alive. Suz has put more time and effort into this house than my former ever did and it shows. She is one of the hardest workers I've ever known and unafraid to tackle things she's never done.  
    A friend of ours remarked this year on how gentle we are with each other and how rarely we seem to argue. Now that does not mean we don't cajole and tease each other with accusatory banter etc because we certainly do, but we've worked our way through  every self-protective issue we've encountered. It is this fact which continues to support all I believe about who she is and the how and why I met her.  Some years back I realized how sensitive to argument she could be and it stood to reason considering the way her parents conduct themselves with the opposite sex. So I set a course for a more verbal relationship than the one she'd formerly had for most of her early adult years. She wanted an intelligent man with a strong belief system and though she wound up with me instead.....its obviously kept her interested.
    I soon figured out that her mom and dad had constantly bantered goodnaturedly with each other and remained friends after separation and divorce, though there were a few years of silence. It showed how much respect and real love existed between them even though they let their anger get the best of them. Suzanne is her mother's favorite simply because she has always stood close to her and isn't afraid of confronting Jeanine when she feels her mom is being unfair. Now her mother would never hurt her other children by such an admission but I know it is true. Sue has her mama's admiration in a lot of ways the others do not for the simple fact of her generosity of spirit, if nothing else. She's even got in mama's face about her attitude toward me a time or two....not that I needed the help.....and certainly I didn't deserve the assaults.....heh, heh, heh.
     During the course of coming to know Suz I realized she is a carbon of her mother in some strong basic ways such as a willingness to offer love and friendship to anyone who reached for them.  This made me realize that if I worked on her issues openly and let her see I wasn't afraid to confront my own fears....granted I was able to see them..... we stood a wonderful chance of having this union continue growing no matter what we encounter. After the long way I created for myself, learning slowly to understand the ins and outs of my remembered childhood and the adoptions of attitude from my parents I believed myself finally ready for a far more open encounter with love and understanding. The fall proved everything is possible between us and I've got a gem in this partner like none before. Though our third party has chosen to take all she learned through us and give another try at her former relationship...we have little to regret for we have an even deeper knowledge now of who we are as spirits and human beings. We wouldn't be together if it were not that way, but it is and I can say honestly say....we both understand why.